Rage

I called the stupid boss, who controls my life, to let him know that I will finally meet Mrs. Crenshaw the following Sunday, while I was waiting on the line.It was my turn, I was expecting [to be attended] by another check-out twerp and I started putting my stuff on the conveyer belt and I heard her kind voice saying "good afternoon, did you find everything you were looking for?"I turned my head to look at her face, and I saw the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen in my life, I noticed she was smiling at me in a special way.I was astonished, but I decided to act quickly and, as soon as she gave me the ticket, I turned it, took my pen and wrote my name and phone number on the back.

Stay and give your number now!, come back later!, stupid!, I bet it was just a brief period of time, but it seems like an hour, finally I decided to give her the damned ticket with my damned phone number smiling nervously, she took it smiling to, I just grabbed my bags and went home.

After all, I made it!, my day is coming to its end without any casualty.

I really wanted to punch my boss in the face, and tell bad words to the check-out twerp and Mrs. Crenshaw, take a baseball bat and hit all the cars stick in traffic, but instead of being at prison I´m finally home.

My cat was staring at his food and I was hungry to, it was dinner time, the time when I envy my workmates, they have families, friends or girlfriends to spend some time, talk about their days, or just watch T.V. together.

I just have my cat, ,my classic rock albums and this bourbon wine bottle, I have been waiting to open it during two years, it makes me mad!, after my fiancé´s dead my life is a mess!

God, I miss her!, I remember three years ago my life was perfect, I had the perfect girlfriend, the perfect job, the perfect place to live, when she died I had to move, I couldn´t live in that place anymore, I couldn´t even breath in that place. Then I get my crappy new job, I just can´t stand my life anymore!

Oh, the phone is ringing! Maybe is her.

e-journal

Monday, April 13th, 2009

Oh no!, Monday, the most difficult day of the week, I wish it was sunday! (as a pop song says).

My day was busy, but since activities are suspended in the place where I´m doing my social service, I still on vacation until wensday.

I woke up a little later than the usual, read a book that was supposed to be finished by yesterday and went to school.

Usually I go to CELE on Monday, but today I had an appointment with a professor to present her my thesis project, I would be so honored if she accept it.

After that, I returned home to read more.

Tuesday, April 14th, 2009

Today reality hit my face as cold water, it was official I was in the City and working as usual.

I woke up wishing I still on the beach or in the “Gran Café de la Parroquia” in Veracruz, but I wasn´t there anymore, I had to move on and catch up with my homework.

I thought that I would be relax and happy when I arrived home after vacation, but it is not that way, there´s no moment that I don´t imagine myself being there, I can´t focus, it seems that my body is here, but my mind doesn´t.

Anyway I went to school and tried to do the best, but then another bad news, I had a bad note in one test in wich I also belived I had done well, and in my opinion I deserved a better note than a 7.

I came home sad and disappointed wishing I still on vacation.

Wensday, April 15th, 2009

Finally I´m back to social service! I had missed watching some patients, give relaxation sessions, etc.

After that I went to CELE, in which I took a test (it was hard). As soon as I finished I went to the library to search information for my research, sometimes it´s really hard getting current information about specific topics and took me a while to get some books.

Satisfied with the books I found, I went home, with the intention of start reading, but insted of that I watch T.V.

I paid for my mistake, because I went to bed two hours latter than the usual.


Thuersday, April 16th, 2009


The only weekday I have chance to wake up latter, but I didn´t because I had to chat with my Goucher partner at 6:00, I wait for half an hour, sent her a message telling her I had been waiting and get back to bed.

When I woke up again I wasn´t angry anymore, and I was excited becuse one of my former classmates presented her final examination to get her degree.

I was worried because it was late and the bus took a long time, finally I arrived to the auditorium and a few minutes latter tha door was closed.

It was a great experience, because I had the chance to see what is going to happen to me soon.

After the judges deliberated to get her the degree and all the excitement disappear, I imagine myself in the same situation and this fact was motivating.


Friday, April 17th, 2009

Sometimes we left home with the idea that we are forgeting something, sometimes it´s just an idea, today it wasn´t for me.

I arrived to the social service as I always do, make some paperwork, attend to a really interesting congress about the implantation of stem cells in the heart to stop the change of shape after an infarction.

Not only was I tired of all the informatin I received, I was also hungry and I decided to buy something to eat and I chose a salad.

On my way to school I remembered I had to print a paper so I did it.

When I was on my way home I realized that I only had $3 Pesos to come back, the amount of money that I need is $10 Pesos.

Yes, I have forgotten my money!, a $50 bill that I thought was in my wallet.

I called my friend Lucía, but she didn´t go to school, the only way was went to C.U. and wait for the R.T.P. Bus that take me home for only $2, but I waited for 2 hours! Under the sun, thirsty, hungry and angry.

The lesson was learned, next time I feel that I´m forgeting something I´ll double check.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

After a hard day like yesterday, I just wanted to wake up late, but I´m taking a course about Human Rights I have to wake up early to be on time.

I´m motivated because it is really interesting, it is a place where I have met new people with ideas like mine, and with differents too.

Besides learning about Human Rights, I also learn about Histrory, Tolerance, Philosophy, Pacifism, Ambientalism, etc.

This course have changed my perspective about topics that I did not care a few months ago, I started going because one of my proffesors told me to go, because of my thesis topic, so I went.

Today the topic was Capitalism, we participate in some group dynamic which showed us clearly the way it works.

It´s been a hard week for me, now I´ll relax and watch T.V.

Worried student

Dear Amy:

I´m searching for an institution to do my social service, it was really difficult to find a place with an attractive program, finally I did.

When I have my first interview there, the chairman told me it would be a good experience because I will have the chance to develop many skills in group and individual therapy with children and adults.

Yesterday was my first day and not only was it boring, also was it a waste of time, I spent four hours copying chapters of a book for an online course this institution is going to give.

Today, nothing changed and I wonder if it´s what I´m going to do for the next six months, so I asked a girl what she had been doing there, she told me: nothing but printing copies.

Maybe the best is to quit and start in another place, what would you do?

Love, worried student.

The $ports business

Many people try, but just few of them are able to participate in the major leagues. Why do they want it? Because it is one of the most profitable professions in many countries.

Sports have thousands of fans all over the world and are those fans who give sportsmen and sportswomwen their money and fame.

But in a country with no budget for education it´s insulting to see how much our athletes earn, but what for?, that´s even more insulting, they don´t even have the same level as their counterparts in other countries, and those who actually do are paid less.

For some students in the U.S. being an athlete is the key for going to college, most of them without any academical achievement.

Here in Mexico, soccer is an indicator of how things are, because in the soccer team of the main public University, UNAM, are players who don´t study there! And they are paid with part of the University´s budget, that could be spent in research; but the worst it´s that UNAM is not even selling its own tickets of its own stadium, Ticketmaster, as usual, is in charge of that.

Sports as business could work in Europe, they have a better economy, but in Latin America it´s absurd and in Mexico it´s more. Loocking for more information on internet, I found out that in the top ten of best paid teams, six are Mexican teams, it could be because we (as population) can easily become fanatics, and take as role models people who are just good (or in some cases just average) athletes, a clear example is Maradona in Argentina who after being one of the best athletes became a cheater and now he is god.

In the end, going to a stadium, buying a T-shirt or spending our money in a most productive way is a personal choice.

Bread and sports to the people!

Score=18

My profile

My name is Monserrat, I´m 25 years old and I study Clinical Psychology at UNAM.

I have been living in Mexico City my whole life, but I hope not for long because I would like to travel a lot and maybe move to another place.

Besides that I´m in a writing class at CELE, because I like to learn how to write better, also it´s a good chance of meeting people.

In my free time I like to listen music (especially rock), buy records, read, go to museums and watch T.V.

Letter to a Canadian

Hello:

I hope you are having a good time, I´m fine, a little busy, you know what school is like, but I will survive.

Well, while we are waiting to meet each other, I can tell you some things about me: I´m a 25 year old Psychology student, big fan of music, especially rock, there are some Canadian bands I really like, such as Broken Social Scene and Stars.

I have allways wanted to go to Canada, because of its wonderful places like Toronto; James Gardens looks like a dream!.

When you come to Mexico City you will find we are really friendly people. I suggest you visit Coyoacan, and go to Frida Kahlo´s Museum “Casa Azul” (Blue House), because it´s a lovely house which was built in the early 20th century, the painter Frida Kahlo and her husband Diego Rivera used to live there and their objects remain as if they were still living in the house.

After that, you should take a walk and have an ice cream or a delicious hot chocolate.

The day you come to Universidad Naconal Autónoma de México (my University), you must take a look at the Biblioteca Central (Central Library) its images were made with natural stone mosaics between 1949 and 1951, by Juan O´Gorman, probably you won´t have enough time to look all of them, it´s amazing!

Those are just a few sugestions, because maybe you will run out of time really soon.

I can´t wait to meet you, hopefully we will have something in common, but if we don´t, who cares? diferences are great and add fun to life.

See you soon.


Love, Monserrat Valdés.

My expectations

I´m a Psychology student and this is my last semester at school, so I´m about to start my thesis, that´s the main reason why I chose this class.

As humans, we have many things on our minds, sometimes we are able to communicate them, but when we don´t have the chance to do that, we can write about them.

Another reason is that I really enjoy music, especially rock and I wish to say my opinion to other people about a single, an album or a video of a band and write a review about it.

Also I know sometimes my writing is not that good and I want to be better because even though I think I´m good at talking and reading I have a really bad time at writing and practice will be my only chance to do it right. The blog is a good way to practice because we also get the chance to have other people watch our work and in some way our ideas, I´m really excited about it.